Anna Combrink: Being a “Beauty Queen”

Filed under Self Worth Your Heart on May 14 12 by

Let’s start with the basics. I’m Anna. I’m 20 years old, entering my junior year of college. I teach at an after school program for underprivileged kids. I mentor them and help them fill in the gaps from whatever they missed during school. I’m also a beauty queen.

I hate phrasing it like that: “Beauty queen”. It just seems so conceited. But that’s what it is. I’m a local titleholder, soon to be competing for the title of Miss Texas, which would take me on to Miss America. You need proof? Here you go.

Anna Combrink

With that crown comes a lot of power. Girls look at you like you’re a Barbie doll who is perfect and does no wrong. I know, because I used to be one of those little girls. It’s the same awe you feel when you see your favorite movie star on the red carpet: Unattainable beauty.

It’s not right to feel like that. By all means I get it. It’s normal, but it’s not okay. You deserve better than that. You were made perfectly in His image. YOU are beautiful. YOU are admirable. YOU hold that unattainable beauty. And you know why? Because there is not a single person in this world who pulls off what you do.

This is something that sticks with me: I once had a little girl at work tell me, “When I grow up, I want to be you. You’re always dressed so cute, and you’re so pretty. I want to look like you when I grow up. My whole life would be perfect.” It’s made me so conscious now of how I approach things. I try not to complain about days that I can’t work out because of whatever has come up, or about my face being broken out. Because somewhere there is a little girl who thinks I’m perfect, flaws and all. And because He thinks I’m stunning, in spite of my flaws.

If you get anything from this, I want you to see the two sides. Younger girls will always look up to you as a beautiful role model. Even if you don’t have a perfect life and aren’t always without sin, lead by example. Don’t let your hang ups control you. Remember that you are beautiful. On the other end, those girls that you admire and strive to be like aren’t as flawless as you’re picturing. Everyone has something that drives them insane (for me, it’s my midget toe). Try not to put them up on such a high pedestal, and remind yourself that you are just as beautiful as they are.

It’s a hard lesson to swallow. I still struggle with it everyday, but something that helps me so much is music. I’ve been a singer since I could talk, and that’s always been the easiest way for me to externalize my emotions. When I feel like I’m really struggling and trying to compare myself to someone who I feel has everything together, I sing to myself these lyrics from Bethany Dillon’s song, “Beautiful”:

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful

 
I want to end this with a challenge, but a fun one (nothing too crazy, like running through mud and doing back flips). Write down the three things you find most beautiful about yourself. Tape them where you can see them, whether it’s your bathroom mirror or your steering wheel. Then, read them every day until you believe them. And when one of those little girls tells you she wants to look like you when she grows up, smile at her and tell her exactly what makes HER so beautiful.

Anna CombrinkMy name is Anna.
My career goal is to be a psychologist, either counseling children or doing forensic psychology!
My favorite fragrance is Happy, by Clinique.
My favorite thing to do is dance.
The passage of scripture that I live by is Proverbs 31:8, “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute.”
The number one item on my bucket list isto be a Disney Princess.

Check out her blog!

Anna writes about her life, pageants, beauty, and more at Owls and Lace.

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  • Nancy Carvette

    Enjoyed your article. Being a good role model is so important in this day and age. Good luck in the Miss Texas contest and may our Lord bless you in whatever you do.
    Nancy