Uncovering Your Purpose: Does God Lead Us to Dead Ends?

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Full disclosure: I’m not in the mood to write at all. Right now, I’m in the middle of my own personal spiritual battle, and I’m EXHAUSTED. This attack has been going on for nearly a year now, and it’s been unrelenting. Writing for The You Are Project has been a challenge for me as of late. This is because of how mentally and physically exhausted I’ve been from fighting constantly. At the end of my last article, I promised that I would discuss someone who was following God’s calling on their life. I didn’t really want to talk about myself yet. This is partially because I feel like it’s a little self-centered to talk about my own life. The reality is, that explanation is a cop out to cover up the fact that it can be really difficult for me to share about my struggles.

This year, I learned how real spiritual warfare is. When you take on a new endeavor, especially one that God has placed on your heart, you are placing yourself directly in the line of fire. When I started You Are, I went to bed anxious and terrified almost every single night. I’m not a very insecure person, and I got completely attacked by self-doubt. I constantly wonder if what I write is really good enough, if anyone is really impacted by what I have to say. Anyone who has ventured into any sort of entrepreneurial endeavor will tell you that they have had to learn to push forward through intense amounts of fear and uncertainty. What I am experiencing right now is this: I’ve arrived at a location from which I have no means to move forward. I’ve trusted God, and it seems that he’s led me to a dead end. I don’t have a job. I have no ideas for solutions to the financial issues I’m experiencing, nor do I have any great strategic ideas of where to go next for You Are. My faith has been shaken at it’s core. When you reach a dead end, does it mean that God forgot about you? Does it mean that you’ve been listening to the wrong voice and have been deceived?

I cried out to God for help; I cried out to God to hear me. When I was in distress, I sought the Lord; at night I stretched out untiring hands and my soul refused to be comforted. I remembered you, O God, and I groaned; I mused, and my spirit grew faint. You kept my eyes from closing; I was too troubled to speak. I thought about the former days, the years of long ago; I remembered my songs in the night. My heart mused and my spirit inquired: “Will the Lord reject forever? Will he never show his favor again? Has his unfailing love vanished forever? Has his promise failed for all time? Has God forgotten to be merciful? Has he in anger withheld his compassion?” (Psalm 77: 1-9)

I totally identify with the psalmist’s cries to God. My heart has been making the very same cries: God, where are you? Do you hear me when I cry out? Where is your blessing? Where is your love? When will you come through? But then I kept reading:

Then I thought, “To this I will appeal: the years of the right hand of the Most High.” I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will meditate on all your works and consider all your mighty deeds. Your ways, O God, are holy. What god is so great as our God? You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples. With your mighty arm you redeemed your people, the descendants of Jacob and Joseph. The waters saw you, O God, the waters saw you and writhed; the very depths were convulsed. The clouds poured down water, the skies resounded with thunder; your arrows flashed back and forth. Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind, your lightning lit up the world; the earth trembled and quaked. Your path led through the sea, your way through the mighty waters, though your footprints were not seen. You led your people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron. (77:10-20)

The psalmist determines that rather than dwelling in his misery, he will instead look to the past and remember God’s provision and power. “I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.” He recalls how God parted the Red Sea to deliver the Israelites from the hand of the Egyptians. Israel was stuck in a spot that seemed like a death trap: between the Red Sea and an army of Egyptians. Escape was virtually impossible. They became angry with God, who had led them to that place.

That really gets me thinking. God led Israel to that place of being completely stuck, with no way out. He didn’t lead them there to destroy them, but to perform a miracle that could only be experienced in such a hopeless situation. It’s easy for me, when I feel completely stuck, to wonder if God really did lead me to this place. Maybe I got lost. Maybe I got sidetracked. Why would following God lead me to a dead end?

The dead ends are where the miracles happen.

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Lauren D'Alessandro
As the founder of The You Are Project’s print magazine and blog, Lauren is passionate about developing publications that inspire creativity and action. Lauren is the Editor-in-Chief of You Are REAL and the creator and manager of our website. Her dream is to continue using writing and publications as tools for communicating God’s love to the world. Keep up with her latest endeavors at laurendalessandro.com.
  • mark s

    I think your writing.is insightful and.inspiring. well. Done. Grrrr, stupid thumbs can’t stop punctuating! Anyway, I enjoy what youve been posting, especially this.particular series. Can’t say much positive about the fashion advice

  • mark s

    (continued). Posted by others, but I’m not exactly.the target.audience. still, your posts are heavy hitting, anything.but fluff, so I think your fears on that are unfounded. If anything, delve deeper!

  • Vanessa Anyaeji

    Such an amazing post. Very real and truthful, something which is hard to find on articles that deal with suffering. I encourage you to keep going, you discuss things that not many people do.